I have just uploaded my first draft of my proposal - I have found this a hard process to undertake and plan - in fact I have yet to complete the planning side of things.

I checked the stats for the time spent working on the document:

That's a lot of revisits and an awful lot of time for 1500 words ...

I've a 6000 word module to do before 9th December ...

Back to the planning ... I wonder if I'm avoiding this as we so often don't actually plan more than 2/3 days ahead due to problems that occur re J's autism - perhaps this is why I am so reluctant to set myself deadlines other than those demanded by the course ... I'm not used to planning to meet deadlines ... but I do spend much of my life planning ahead.

I wrote today on one of my online forums that I belong to:

Thanks for putting into words how I am feeling at the moment - autism'd out is so right ...

A friend asked the other day what she could do to help
(I like friends like that!)

I said the problem is that it's just day to day life that's dragging me down and you can't really do much about that. I'm fed up of having to be on the ball and two steps ahead all the time but I'm even more worried about what might happen if I'm not ...

I need to ponder on why I can plan ahead for life but not so easily for UV ...